Friday, May 29, 2015

Thannor's Thoughts

Of late, I have been thinking of taking up the habit of keeping a journal, and I suppose now is as good a time as any to start.

Today, I awoke well before dawn, though that is not so rare.  The dreams--nightmares--still plague my mind.  Once more, it was as if I relived that night near Bree.  I could all but feel it, the shadows coiling around me, the tree against my back, her invading my mind, seeking I know not what...  And once more, I was frozen, unable even to reach my sword's hilt or cry for the aid of Elbereth Gilthoniel.  Then that scene melted away, and I found myself within Mirkwood with my dear Merilwen once more.  She took my hand in hers as we made our way through the wood, and her green eyes shone...  Then I saw it all happen again before my very eyes, as I have so many times before.  The Orcs appeared as if from nowhere. And though some part of me knew that it was merely a dream, I dreaded what I knew would happen.  I awoke with a jolt--much relieved to find myself within my home once more--and could not return to sleep after such dreams.  These fell dreams are surely the work of the scar upon my mind, taunting me with my fears and weaknesses...  And yet, now more than ever, I must not lose hope.  I must not--cannot--give in to fear or to despair.  This foe must be faced, and I do not intend to let it best me.

Thankfully, I do not face this trial alone.  Speaking of such matters may not be easy, to say the least, but I am glad beyond words to have such kinsmen and friends supporting me in this time of need.  Truly, I am blessed to know them, and I trust them with my life.  Already, I have been given wise counsel and words of encouragement...  Skalithor, Tarvhos, and Hawkinz especially have offered support and wise words (though I must not forget the words of Assyle or Wavern).  I have found myself thinking upon their words of late...  Poor Hawkinz seemed to blame himself for what has befallen me when last we spoke, for meeting him that day in Duillond led to becoming a kinsman, and much has happened since I joined the kinship.  Unfortunately, not all of it has been pleasant...  But as I said to him, I do not blame him for what has happened--it was not his doing, and I daresay he could not have foreseen what would happen.  And Skalithor has given me wise advice, indeed--he told me that I must cherish the good memories of that short time spent with my darling, which I intend to do.  And he reminded me that our parting will not last forever.  Someday, I will sail into the West, and I pray that she is there to greet me upon the white sands of the Undying Lands.  But not yet, for there is still much to be done.  I am a Guardian, and I know my duty well.  Until that day, my shield and sword will be at the ready to serve my kinship and the Free Peoples.

Of late, my mind has also turned to something Tarvhos said during one of our most recent conversations.  I cannot remember his exact words, but he questioned why I had not often spoken of personal matters.  I trust my kinsmen with my life, in all truth.  But it is...difficult to speak of such things.  I have always been a quiet person, giving more to listening and learning, and often I have been reluctant to share my burdens with others for fear of causing them grief or worry.  I know such a thing is foolish...  And Merilwen told me that there is nothing wrong with unburdening your heart to others.  But I have been carrying much within me for some time, and at the start, I was not certain how to go about unloading it.  And yet, I have been getting better of late, I feel.  Even if certain things are painful to speak of, it is also a relief, as though there have been heavy loads lifted from my shoulders.

Today has been a quiet day, and has given me much time to think of such things...  A good part of the morning was spent in Michel Delving at the forge--Huck needed new horseshoes, and I crafted nails and the like.  It did my heart good to do so, I think.  I do not mind crafting tools of war when the need arises--I must admit, there is a sense of pride in forging a shield or a piece of armor or what have you--but I would forge more simple things if I had the choice.  It is calming, in a way.  The sound of the hammer striking blends with the beating of my own heart, and I am focused upon the work before me.  Such work brought back memories of time in the forge with Father--for after I had grown enough to swing the heavy hammer, he first taught me how to forge by crafting simple things such as nails, and that manner of work was what he first allowed me to do when I grew enough in skill to wield the smith's hammer by myself.  I could ask for no better teacher--he would explain all that he did and why, and oftentimes he would let me assist in the forging itself so I might learn by doing.  And even when I made mistakes (for while my folk may be graceful, we too can make foolish errors) he was patient with me.  Aye, there were more times than I care to recall where I burned myself or hammered my own hand by accident, I must admit, and there were certainly trips to Merilwen and her teacher so that they might apply soothing ointments or bandages.  Though I daresay a smile from her was enough to ease any pain (or wounded pride)...

After I returned from Michel Delving in the afternoon, I tended to Huck and took a short ride around the neighborhood--partly to give him some exercise and partly to see if all was well.  Thankfully, I have seen or heard nothing amiss lately.  Well, besides that Hobbit fellow I saw running atop the fence last night...  He seems a little odd, perhaps--calling himself the Night Runner or somesuch--but he appears to be quite harmless.  I went to the kinship house after my ride and made certain that all was well, as is my duty.  I am glad to report that there has been no trouble today. In fact, it was rather quiet, though that is certainly no bad thing.  I have not seen Dorus today, though that is not uncommon.  He seems to prefer to keep to himself, and I've no wish to disturb him.  If he does wish to speak to me, I suppose he will.

The sun is setting now, painting the whole neighborhood.  It looks like it will be a fine night...  Perhaps I will go visit some friends after supper, or perhaps I will go fishing tonight.  It is quiet and peaceful by the pier, and I could catch tomorrow's supper into the bargain.  Or perhaps I will go and listen to the trees, as Assyle showed me once.  They must have many tales to tell...  At any rate, I have nearly reached the end of this sheet of parchment--while there is more I wish to write about, it will have to wait until another time.


Monday, March 30, 2015

From Under the Apple Tree: Entries I - V


 

                           ENTRY I: Strings of Fate

      My Dearest Mother,

More has happened with the passing of every new moon.

There was a long period, where I followed in Rædwulf 's footsteps. About six years after your passing, I met the cause of fathers long absences in our lives; an elf by the name of Apostos who has long ensnared our family lineage to her cruel will. Rædwulf has long been a spy for her. When I turned eighteen, that changed. She found me and turned his sights on me, and since then, my father has not been seen.

Much has been revealed to me as of late. Perhaps Rædwulf has planned it from the start, that I should take his burden for him. This is why he took me on his hunting trips from such a young age. I have been so naive. However now is not the time to dwell on things unseen in the past...

While I spent those years alone save for Ardonali - some fourteen long years - I am making up for it now. I have made some new friends and with their trust, a new light has shone in a dark tunnel, and while things may still be bleak in some places, I know that with their help, there is certainly no obstacle that I cannot overcome. 

How did I come across this wonderful and diverse Kinship? Now that is something I must tell you about.

I had briefly met the leader, Skalithor, and a small collect of his company some time ago, though the meeting was brief and I did not think I would find him again in travels. my  travels.

 So it would happen...

Apostos the Cruel

I was at the Inn of Dale, in between tasks. Twenty years ago on  that day is when I lost you, my dear mother. Already I seem to have fathers trait of being easily addicted to certain substances, and I sought to drown away my thoughts of your passing with strong mead. That same day it would happen that two acquaintances of Skalithor were present in the Inn.

It should go without saying I am not entirely pleasant when I'm intoxicated, so I wasn't very friendly to this hobbit, Maeflower, and her human friend, Aivah. Long story short, I think there was a fight, I fell out a window on the second story, and one of them stole something from me. The details are a little embarrassing so I'll leave those out. Now, while I got back what was taken from me, there were ill feelings between the three of us, and I left without expecting to see them again. Hah! 

Fate is a funny lady. As she would have it, we would find each other in Bree later. Maeflower was expressing her exasperation, no - it was just plain outrage - over the situation, when I happened across them in a park. I could tell that I had upset them a great deal, and sought to apologize, and yet the Hobbit would hear none of it, and I was hard headed about it myself when my apology was initially shot down. So it was, I departed from them again, not before being approached by two more members of their group, who I will discuss later.

It could not have been two days later when I chanced upon Skalithor, and I mentioned to him that I was moving, and he offered me his aid. It would happen that I was moving to the Shire, but where I had not decided, and Skalithor again aided me in finding a home and even purchasing it for me until I could earn the funds myself. He seemed a little eager for me to move there, and soon I would learn why. 

As it turned out, nearly the whole neighborhood was a dwelling place for his Kinship - including Maeflower and Aivah. No doubt knowing what sorrows had befallen a kinship member, he had moved me into a neighborhood where I would be a short walk from her! You can imagine I was furious, and impatient with Skalithor, and though I threatened to leave, I did not. Somehow, I knew you would want me to stay. 

And still there was more turmoil yet, even after hard feelings had been forgiven, as I had avoided others for so long, fearing Apostos would know how to use their friendships against me. Still I remained, though I threatened to leave time and time again, and Skalithor just as well threatened to follow me to the ends of the earth, and he very well did one time. 

My secrets became theirs to know, my burdens were spread out over them, and despite that it would not have been my choice, in the end I have never been wiser. We also learned that our fates had been intertwined from the start, as they too had a friend under the snare of Apostos...

For now, that is all I will say. Much has happened since then, and these matters have grown more complex by the day. In spite of this, we have grown in hopefulness as things have become more complex, and I know that we will see these bitter affairs through to the end, and we will be stronger as a whole because of them.


                                                         - Tarvhos Bartholomaus 





                 ENTRY II: A Light in Dark Places (Part I) 

 

    My Dearest Mother,

 
As I have mentioned in my previous entry, I have met many new souls, who have taken my darkness and filled it with a new and beautiful light. I have not met one yet who I distrust, so long as they are a friend of Skalithor, though some of them conceal themselves more than others. Still, let me at least tell you of those I know, some in more detail than others.






Skalithor the Valiant
                 Skalithor  Mountainzephyre the Valiant

Firstly there is Skalithor, the leader of our Kinship, named Mallorn Children of the Fourth Age. He is the first that I met in this group, and I gladly give him all of my trust. You would like him, Mother - he is strong and yet not brutal in his ways, he is wise and yet he does not seek to place his wisdom over yours, and to all of his friends he is a beacon of protection and caring. I have inadvertently learned of some deeper sorrows of his, and I can see that he has lost much, and yet he does not dwell on these things.

He is a man of justice. A dear friend to his companions, and that much more terrifying to his enemies. I have seen that he will hold back until he is sure the enemy is against him, without any inclination to change their ways.

There is much that I can learn from him. I like to think that he is as much of a father as I have ever had, and it is only with his help that I have begun to creep out of the depths of fear and sorrow and right what I have wronged. I hope with his aid to grow in wisdom. 




 Maeflower Tooke the Dear
One of the first that I met in the Kinship was Maeflower along with Aivah. Due to those aforementioned circumstances of our meeting, my first impression of her was that she was high strung and haughty. As I've discovered, this is the furthest thing from the truth.


She is perhaps one of the most caring souls I have met. She frets about her Kinship like a nervous mother, and cares greatly for every member, or at least she has demonstrated otherwise. Maeflower is a sensitive and loving person and has shown a great talent for making all who meet her feel comfortable and cheerful. It is hard not to be in a good mood around her; her smile is contagious and her laugh brings a great sense of joy about a room. This wonderful hobbit constantly places others before herself, and I'm sure that she would take every burden from you in an instant if it would make you happy even for a moment.





Lallinvorn the Bright
Lallinvorn the Bright and Beautiful
   
What a sight to behold! Skalithor might have my head if he reads this journal entry. In any case, Lallinvorn is a beautiful elf maiden, and a Guardian of our kinship. She is as bright and talented as she is lovely, and I do not think that some of the greatest warriors of men could best her in battle.



Unfortunately, her brother - Marthrandir, who I will speak of in a future entry -  has been caught in this web of fate as well, as he was taken by Apostos as her mercenary. I can see that the events have weighed on Lallinvorn, and I have learned that if anything can send my heart aching, it is to see a beautiful elf sorrow so. 







Hawkinz the True
 Hawkinz the Playful and True

One of the first that I met, along with Skalithor, Maeflower and Aivah, would be Hawkinz. At first there was much mystery to him, though now I would be wrong to say that he is the secretive elf lad I initially thought. Hawkinz, though serious when the situation calls for it, is a high energy fellow with a good spirit and strong will! He is as witty and ornery as he is loyal and kind. Our first interactions were stiff, though I have learned much about him through them.. Still, now he is more like a brother to me, and when he is not preoccupied with some task, his company is usually full of lightheartedness and maybe a little bit of mischief as well! Sometimes I wonder where Skalithor finds the patience.

Like all of the others in the Kinship, he undoubtedly has his sorrows and woes, and yet little has he let them be known.


  






Aivah the Innocent
    Aivah the Splendid and Innocent 

Another one of the first few that I met is Aivah. She was there with Maeflower on that fateful day in the Inn. Needless to say, I thought her a thief and coward in the beginning, and dare I wonder what her initial thoughts of me were! And yet like the others, we have moved past the bitter meeting and have grown to be friends.

She is a young girl who I have learned is half elf, and she hails from faraway places.. Might I mentioned that she is a Princess? What a strange group I have met. Though she is only fifteen, she has told me that she has much admiration for the Hawkinz lad, and there is also much turmoil in her soul as there are much to distance them. Some time after our initial meeting, I had the chance to talk to her and I learned of these things, and it was through these conversations that we were able to find friendship despite everything.
Innocent, full of energy, kind and bright, Aivah is a priceless friend to the kinship and myself. 
These are just a few of the wonderful souls I have met. There are many others who I will include in future entries.                          

                              
  - Tarvhos Bartholomaus





                     ENTRY III: A Light in Dark Places (Part II)

 

                My Dearest Mother,


There are more still I would like to mention, who have brought me some wisdom, comfort, or friendship in this times of chaos. I would like to say that all of those who I have met, have expressed a great deal of similar noble traits; honor, loyalty, kindness... despite all of their own trials and afflictions. So much can I learn, from such a diverse Kinship of grand people!  





Assyle the Gentle
Assyle the Majestic and Humble 

Skalithors Kinship is certainly one of many treasures! Assyle is no exception.

I had met her earlier on, and I knew her a short while before truly learning about her. She has been through a great sorrow, the loss of a dear friend.. which has weighed heavily on her, and left a scar on her soul so deep that she had lost her voice. And still something wonderful happened, under the apple tree.

We had been speaking of our loved ones - you, my mother - and her mentor, who was lost to her.. and we spoke of my tree, and how it connected me to you, and the stars which connected her to him, and how our loved ones were only lost if we forgot about them. Then she began to sing a song with her hands, and as she furthered into the song.. her voice returned! And ah, I could not have been more fortunate to be there, for it is a lovely voice! And what a splendid friend to have. 






Thannor the Patient
Thannor the Patient Protector 
 
Thannor is newer in this Kinship than myself and still he has left a great impression on all of the Kinship folk! Despite that little good has befallen him upon joining us, he remains diligent and keeps his head above water. And certainly a lot has happened since he joined. So worthy has he proven himself to be, that Skalithor has bestowed him a rank as a Guardian.

Most importantly he is a great friend and ally to have. He puts others before himself in any situation that calls for it, and knows how to keep himself composed! I envy his sort of self control, and I know I can learn a lot from him. I hope he will be with us for a good long while.



 









Dorus the Humble and Reserved
Dorus the Elusive

This is one Kinship member that know little about. As a matter of fact, I cannot say for certain that he even exists! I have seen him a few times when I was injured, and barely conscious, so I cannot say if he's someone I made up or a hidden member of this Kinship.. in any case, I remembered him clearly enough while I was awake once that I was able to conjure this image. This would certainly explain how the Kinship home is mysteriously cleaned every day, and the food that keeps showing up on the tables...

In any case, I would like to think that if he does exist, he is a loyal member of this Kinship, and I hope to meet him someday. Otherwise if he doesn't exist, I probably ought to retire early...

Orinmur the Cautious

One other of Dwarf Kind I have met, though regret to say that know little about, is a dwarf by the name of Orinmur.  I know that he has helped me greatly and offered me many words of advice and friendship in these troubled times. He as well as the others has my trust and friendship as long as he would take it.

He is brave though not rash, on the contrary I know him to be very cautious, and his intuition regarding certain matters has proved reliable.

Kimelly the Sensitive 

  
Another hobbit friend of the Kinship is Kimelly. Like Maeflower, she worries greatly about her Kinship in times of trouble, and she is a very sensitive and loving Hobbit - witty to boot! What she might lack in courage at times, she makes up for in good wisdom and counsel.

I hope that once these complicated times have come to pass, I will be able to learn more of her; she is very pleasant company, although I have spent few precious moments with her.

                  

 

 

 

                       ENTRY IIIV: A Question of Trust

 

       My Dearest Mother,

I am nearly healed now..  regardless of where I am along that path, I can no longer remain still. This is not in line with Skalithors ideals - he would have me stay still longer an read books regarding his journeys, and look over maps all day. He has told me that I should give time for my heart to heal, and I still fail to see what he knows.

Many strange and confusing things have occurred, and though I might have missed some of them due to my injury, I have obtained knowledge, or a loose idea rather of the events.

It was learned that my father is seeking me with some ill intent. Hawkinz obtained this information, and he is certain that he seeks my demise. What is more, is that Raedwulfe is traveling with a boy, around fifteen years of age. Already this has unnerved me, because certainly he wants nothing else than to obtain some good for himself and he does not truly care about this child's well being.

Moreover, it has been said that Ardonali is the one who betrayed my location to Raedwulfe, and has turned him against me. My father is convinced that I will seek to destroy him, and that if he is not rid of me first, this will be fulfilled.

The Face of Friend or Foe?
Ardonali has long been a trusted friend and guardian of our family line, protecting us from some of Apostos threats.  
He was even appointed as your guardian, and I have believed this all along.



And still things may be very different. There are things that I see about him now that were not apparent before I joined the Kinship. There is a stiffness to him. Many of the Kinship members took a great deal of time to begin to trust him, and even Skalithor only recently appointed him an official member of the Kinship.

Another situation of both curiosity in concern is something that Hawkinz has possibly learned about the boy who travels with my travel.

What we know is that he was an orphan in Gondor, taken in by a woman by the name of Silverfeather. I have not personally talked to her but a short moment or two and still I hope to understand more about her. Skalithor has given her a rank in the Kinship already... in any case, this boy is like a child to her, even though they are not related. While she's not related to him, I might be.. as there is some evidence to support that Raedwulfe took a second wife and had a child with her not long after he abandoned me to Apostos.

For now I will look at this with an open but critical mind, and I hope the answers will become clear sooner than later.

As it is I will not have another entry for some time, I'm afraid that I have upset a great friend and a lovely elven maiden and I have to make amends, while trying to unravel this puzzle. My mother, watch over me that I might not stray far from the truth.

                                   -Tarvhos Bartholomaus  







               ENTRY V: Drowning Feeling



   My Drearest Mother,

It has been long since I've written in my journal and much has happened between these entries. Some things better than others, and still everything has managed to bring with it a new wave of confusion so thick, every step I take with the Kinship feels like I'm wading in sap, and falling in it more than moving forward.

Raedwulf left. Much ensued, and essentially, he declared that he was against Skalithor, and so he would either suffer the consequences of anyone who might declare themselves against justice, or leave. He took the latter route, and fled to Gondor.

However, it was an odd thing that he should bid Taivian, the one thing he seemed to care about still, behind. Taivian is his son, and my half brother. He is only fourteen and very wise. The events have shifted greatly since his arrival. Apostos, who I once knew to be an enemy, has become an ally to the Kinship. And still, to tell you of Taivian and Apostos, I will have to step back a pace..

The Bartholmaus family line has a dark history... many generations ago, an evil necromancer named Xargoth caused a great many to live in fear. Ardonali and Apostos fought beside teach other ceaselessly to make sure Xargoth would never again be able to bring harm to anyone, and when they at last succeeded in the long battle, he would leave them with a haunting prophecy.

Xargoth had a son, and though his son had aided Ardonali and Apostos in bringing his own demise, he could very well be responsible to some extent for bringing about the predecessor of Xargoth, the one to receive his powers. For it was bade that the second born son of a family in the Bartholomaus line would inherrit his power.

Once Apostos and Ardonali had rested from their turmoils, they immediately began to discuss the plan for when that time came. For it could be but a few years or many generations and so they would have to be ready.

When at first they thought that they would both share the same sentiments regarding this cursed child, they soon discovered their methods were completely different.

Ardonali sought to have the child destroyed before he could pose any threat. Apostos would seek to help raise the child, acting as a sort of overseer for the family, and teach him to use his powers wisely. Each was horrified by the others decision - Ardonali would accuse Apostos of seeing the fall of many innocents by her ignorance, and Apostos would accuse Ardonali an unjustified murderer if he should hold true to his path.

So they went their ways, each one not hindering the other but they have no spoken since. They both crossed interesting paths along their ways.. Ardonali became a good friend and guardian of the Bartholomaus line, though his intentions were ill. And Apostos takes up studying the same dark magic that Xargoth used, which ultimately takes hold of her as she had not prepared adequetley to learn of it's secrets. So one with good intentions is painted evil, and one with ill intentions is painted good. Now Raedwulfe Bartholomaus has a child, myself, whom he abandons whilst trying to rid himself of the eyes of Apostos, who has serviced much of the family line to deeds influenced by the darkness holding her. And so she turns her focus on me.

Little do they know, that my father Raedwulfe has taken another family in Gondor, and the second son is born. And just as it was said, he is born with a great power, though he was hidden for a good while, of course until he came into contact with us.

As it would occur.. Ardonali did not kill Taivian, and still by making his decisions of the past known, he created a rift - namely between himself and Taivian's adoptive mother, Silver. As I have said, Apostos has become an ally of the Kinship, and I believe she is helping to train Taivian, as the boy often goes off to places I do not know...

Which brings me to a more personal matter.

Skalithor has placed Taivian in my responsibility. Although he has told me that I do not carry this load alone, it has still weighed heavily on me. I am due to be a good role model to Taivian and I have only proved myself a fool thus far.

I feel very distant from him although he is my brother. Now that he seeks to hone his abilities, a power that I am not at all familiar with and in all honesty afraid of, Apostos is a better guide at this point in his life. There are things that they understand that I do not, and it makes me feel as useless as a small insect, barely able to understand the earth it walks on. I am only as good a role model as I am a man, and that is to say, I am not. Taivian does not need me and somehow, this thought makes me feel lonelier than all of the years I had traveled Middle Earth on my own, and puts a deep well in the pit of my stomach. I am afraid he's already established a better friendship with Ardonali, the one who once intended to end his life, than he has with me. And that is well, there is more to be gained from knowing Ardonali than myself.

Silverfeather seems to be suffering from the same sorrows in that matter of subject. I tried to approach her about it. When I first met her, she was a chipper woman full of strength and dignity, and yet since she has learned of Ardonalis intentions, and the extent of Taivians abilities, she too has had to come to terms with the thoughts that he will grow more distant from us. However when I tried to speak to her about this, I only reflected my own frustrations off of her and left us both worse off than before.

I would like nothing more than to run away. To have only myself to worry about. To forget the Shire and the Kinship and maybe I would again feel like I am moving ahead instead of falling back twice for every step I tried to take forward. And still, would that only make me a selfish coward? Staying doesn't seem to be doing anyone any good.

At this point, I feel lower than I did when Apostos commanded me to do many dark deeds, and I submitted to them willfully.. Never before have I had so many allies and still never before have I felt more isolated and afraid. And then because of such, I feel like a coward and a weakling, and there is a cycle of fear right now I do not know how to break. These events and thoughts are on my constantly, and often now I forget to eat or sleep. I feel like the cold jaws of despair have begun to wrap around me..

How I wish you were here, Mother. You would know what to do and what to say. How I wish you were here...

            -Tarvhos Bartholomaus



 

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Concerning Dorus

If you happen to be passing by 2 Chalk Road in Cotstream on a lovely Shire morning, you might see a strange little figure working tirelessly in his garden. From a distance, you might take him as a thin and badly sunburned hobbit-- And indeed, a distance is all you could take him by, for he would surely retreat back into the house if you tried to draw any closer. Many a Halfling in these parts have called out to the unfriendly fellow, wishing him a good morning in polite hobbit fashion, only to receive an over-the-shoulder back-of-the-hand wave in response. You may take this for being rude, as many others have, but perhaps you'll understand his reasons:


You see, Dorus the Book-Keeper is a goblin. 
Not a very old goblin, mind. Merely a teenager or a very young adult, but a goblin nonetheless.

He lives with the Mallorn Children Of The Fourth Age, adding new members to the record, tending the garden, keeping the kinship house in tip-top shape, and setting traps for trespassers. In his free time, Dorus practices his reading and writing, Free People's speech, and decorates the walls of his secret room with detailed murals; regarding the historic adventures of his friends. He is quite a skilled artist, and dearly loves to paint!


To describe Dorus in personality, I should say he is delightfully playful and clever. So much so that our resident Hunter, who in my opinion is more of an uncultured imp than an Elf, has seen fit to engage in a back-and-forth prank war with him. Dorus enjoys hearing about the travels of the kinship members, and delights the younger ones by telling them stories of his own. He is no longer a grimy goblin, if indeed he ever was to begin with, for he knows how to wash and hang the laundry.

He is a fairly decent baker of biscuits, has excellent manners, and can set the table nicely. Recently, his hobbit friends have taught him how to tend to chickens and brew a delightful cup of chamomile tea. All this to say Dorus is actually a very friendly and accomplished fellow, but does not host any gleeful parties or make out-of-kinship friends for the sole reason of his race.


Now undoubtedly a goblin, book-keeping for a kinship of Elves, humans, hobbits, and a dwarf in the Shire is a remarkable thing indeed. Definitely one in need of explanation... 


It all started deep, deep down in Goblin Town...

There's no hope of reforming a goblin already set in his gruesome ways, so it goes without saying that Dorus was a timid and abused misfit. We do not know if he ever ate anything repulsive, and from the words of Dorus, he doesn't either. Food of any kind was never spared for him. He had to get by on what he could steal, and often had to gulp it down faster than he knew what, before the others caught him and beat him.

Oh yes, poor Dorus was beaten a terrible many times. Perhaps because he was small and pink, or perhaps because there was something noticeably good in his broken heart. I for one believe it was because he was not mutated as the rest of them are, and that they were each jealous of his dear little nose. Either way, his treatment was always dreadful and the poor dear was always unhappy.

He lived in a small, dome-shaped room behind a crevasse in the cave wall. The entrance to which was thankfully too small and shallow for most other goblins. Inside, Dorus could do little more than sit in one place or lay down to sleep, but he liked it anyway because he was safe.

Though not as refined then as he is today, Dorus still loved to paint. As now, he would express himself through pictures on the walls and ceiling of his cubbyhole. Sadly, there were not many colors to be found down in the darkness, so most were drawn with black and very soon, the images began to run together. Thus he took to painting elsewhere in Goblin Town.


It was a very unpopular hobby. The goblins didn't care for his artistic exploits and beat him all the more because of it, nevertheless, he couldn't stop himself. His drawings were the only thing that comforted him, so he took to sketching different images on flat rock slabs and stored them in his cubbyhole.

One particular day, the day Dorus says started the whole thing, he had tried to snag a meal for himself and had been beaten again. This time receiving nothing for his trouble but a kick in his empty tummy. He lay in his cubbyhole weeping about the pain and his rotten luck, when suddenly a similar noise reached his ears. Though it was little more than a distant echo, dancing off the cave walls, he could discern that it was a good deal fairer cry than his own. It did not gurgle in the way goblin throats always do, indeed, he had never heard such a cry before. Curiously, and still wincing from his own hurts, he slipped down the wall and began to follow the sound.

As he drew closer to the Slave Pens, he began to understand the cause of the differences he had detected: It didn't cry like a goblin because it wasn't a goblin, it was a prisoner. For a moment outside the tunnel, Dorus hesitated. He did not like going down as far as the Slave Pens- Beaten so often for himself, he knew what each blow felt like, and watching it happen to anyone else renewed the pain in his mind. He considered turning around and going back to his own misery, but what then? He would cry some more, paint another picture in the same black color, sleep for awhile, then crawl out again and try to steal food... Again nothing would change, his life would persist in the bleak way it always had. The way Dorus figured it just then was that: When one has always been miserable and knows what direction will keep him miserable, the chance at something new and unexpected calls louder than can be ignored. So, in he went.

Not wanting to be caught and questioned, Dorus climbed around behind the guard's tent and scaled the walls up to the ceiling. From so high, he could get a better grip on which cell the noise was coming from. There were no guards in front of it, but quite a few unsavory characters cackling around a large fire. Careful not to loose his grip, Dorus descended slowly and crept around toward the dark cell.

The figure he saw inside was a little bruised and muddy, but over all, she looked as though she were a new arrival.


She was an Elf with black, shoulder length hair and keen blue eyes. She stood behind the rusty bars, weeping softly. Dorus approached slowly. The scuffle of his feet, silent as they tried to be, were caught by her Elvish ears and caused her to glance up. A look of fear was upon her fair face as she quickly backed away from him, to the back of the cell. He could only blink in response. He didn't understand her language, and could barely speak two words of his own... Not that there was anything to say. After a moment, she frowned angrily and spoke to him. Though he did not understand the words then, she had used Free People speech to demand:

"What do you want?"


Dorus acknowledged her expression and tone to be that of anger and tilted his head quizzically. Just then, he heard a grumble and looked over his shoulder. The guards were coming back! Quick as he could, Dorus fled back to the wall and climbed up high, then went back to the entrance and ran away to his cubbyhole. But that night did not resume it's usual pattern for him. He spent a long time thinking about the prisoner and the unkind circumstances they both found themselves in.

All that night, he thought about it, and could not stop thinking about it no matter how hard he tried.
Dorus had never been met anyone who had been as badly treated as he had before, he felt their pain somehow connected them. He couldn't do anything to help her.. Not really. But perhaps he could bring her something. Just a little something. What must she be missing most about her world?

What did her world have that Goblin Town didn't? As big and endless as it was, Goblin Town must have everything the prisoner's world had... Except.. The bright thing in the sky!

.....But how was he supposed to bring her that?!...

Defeated, Dorus reached for a stone slab and his paints, with intent of drawing the Elf girl. Then suddenly the thought occurred to him: All these images he had created were things he didn't actually have, but had known at one point or another. Some were things he had seen for himself, others were from stories he had heard, or dreams he had had. Down near the legendary Gollum's old dwelling, he sketched an image of how he imagined the creature must have looked. And on one wall, he drew the story of 13 Dwarfs and a Wizard who escaped fire on the wings of giant eagles. He hadn't seen either of these things, but they were his because he drew them. He could draw the Elf girl a picture of the bright thing and bring that to her instead!

The only problem with this plan was that he had never seen the bright thing before. Nevertheless, he resolved to see it in the morning and went to sleep. When the hour came, he armed himself with a stone slab and a pouch of black paint, then started out.

Dorus sneaked through the tunnels to the opening, trying not to get caught and questioned by anyone. His heart was pounding wildly in his chest as he squeezed through the crack and stepped out into the world. The view from over the white Misty Mountains wilderness was breath-taking! The icy cold wind stung his face and burned his lungs, but he did not step back. He had never realized just how wide the world was.. It went on forever, and ever, and ever.



Not loosing sight of his cause, Dorus ventured forward a few steps. He could see the light on the snow, but it's source was hiding behind the ledge above him. Placing a hand over his eyes, he peaked out. The feeling was unbearable! He withdrew feeling blinded. The sun was too bright, he couldn't get a good enough look at it. Dorus sat back and considered giving up. It was cold out here, he should just turn around and go inside. Why should he go through so much trouble for a slave anyway? Why should he care?

But then he saw the blank slab in his hand and thought of her tears..

He did care. He didn't know why. There was no logical explanation for it.. Why would a goblin imp ever care about an Elf prisoner who just happened to be shedding tears........ At the same time of his own............ Probably for the same reasons........ The big fiery giant was friends with the Elves, it only made sense that it would attack a goblin if ever it saw one.. Maybe the sun just needed a chance to get to know him. It would hurt, but he was used to pain anyway, so he might as well.

Taking a deep breath and bracing himself, Dorus straightened up and charged out into the snow, turning abruptly and staring up into the sun again. It was so bright and painful! The few seconds felt like hours; yet taking pain on behalf of someone else seemed to lessen the bitterness. In an instant, Dorus had his image and retreated again to the shadows. He still hadn't gotten a good look, but there was a shape in his eyes when he closed them: A circle.

Propping his back against the frozen wall, Dorus squeezed his eyes shut and examined what was there, then opened them again and began to paint. Soon, he has perfect circle on the stone slab, but how would he make it glow? With a glance at the light on the snow, Dorus thought how sharp it's glare had been when he stood under it.. Almost like a sword. Slowly, he sketched a pointy triangle on one edge of the circle, followed by another and another. At last, his work was done!

That night, he sneaked back down to the Slave Pens, the same way he had gone before. There the prisoner sat, daydreaming at the floor in a forlorn way. Upon detecting his presence, she looked at him and shot to her feet. Timidly, he crawled to the bars and sent his picture sliding underneath them, then backed away and waited to see how she liked it. After a moment or two of watching him, she looked down to see what he had brought. She stooped and picked it up, staring curiously at the markings on it.

He watched her intently until a look of familiarity passed across her face. Eagerly, she looked to him. "The sun?" she asked, though he didn't understand. He shrugged in response. She looked away and began to mutter to herself; reminding herself that he was a goblin and thus did not know what the sun was, and even if he did, he would not want to paint it. Then, something Dorus did not at all expect happened. The Elf girl looked again upon his drawing and smiled.

Was his silly image really enough to make her happy even in a place like this? How amazing! There was no time to think about it however, for just then, the guards came sauntering back. As before, Dorus fled back to his cubbyhole, more in thought than before.

****

Thus Dorus' life took on a different pattern. Every evening, he would venture out and draw something, then bring the picture down to the Elf girl in the cells. Soon, he began bringing other things too. As one time he drew a picture of a pine tree and, unsatisfied with his colorless depiction, brought a twig of it. With each little offering, she would smile and even began to offer him the measly bit of food she was given. Subconsciously, the two became more and more comfortable sitting next to the bars beside one another, until they could pass things between the two of them without any reluctance.

One evening, Dorus brought several slabs and his paints down, and began to sketch as he sat beside her cell. Every now and again, he would glance up and examine her face, then look down again and try to recreate the angles he had just observed. She watched him work quietly, unaware of what he was creating until he handed her the finished product. It was a picture of her.

 She then pointed at a slab and made a motion with her finger, gesturing she wanted to draw something too. Eagerly, Dorus passed it to her, wondering what she would draw. She scribbled for a moment, then turned it up and showed him a picture of a key.

Dorus frowned. He knew what she meant by that, and indeed he had noticed how frail and beaten she was becoming. But to free a prisoner would be an act worthy of death! He'd never get away with it! It seemed to Dorus at that time that their carefully formed friendship was now over. He just couldn't free her! He was too scared. He just couldn't. Quickly, he shook his head and gathered the remainder of his slabs, climbing back over the walls as he had so often done. He fully intended never to come back to her or indeed ever see her again. Yet as he came down behind the guards tent and made for the exit, he suddenly overheard two gruff voices talking to one another.

"Nah, she's no good to us anymore." one grumbled. "She can't lift nuthin', can't hold on to not'ta.. I dun't know what happened, but she's only good for a warg chew toy now."

"Does the king agree?" grumbled another one.

"O'course he do. We're throwing her in the pit tonight. Now finish eatin', we got work to do." Replied the first.

Dorus was horrified. Were they talking about the Elf girl? She was only skinny and weak because she had been sharing her food with him. A decent meal would set her to rights in no time! She wasn't not good for nothing. She-- She was his friend.

All at once, Dorus made up his little mind. Setting down his slabs and leaving his paint forever, he sneaked around the side of the tent and saw the first guard. He sat hunched over, gnawing into a big wad of meat. On his belt, Dorus noticed a loop of keys and slowly reached for them. Years of stealing food had given him a stealthy hand, and in only a moment, he had the jailer's keys. Quickly, he went back up the wall and over to the Elf girl's cage. She was hugging her knees at the back of the cell, looking so weak and sad, but when she saw him, she looked as though she was could not believe what she was seeing. Dorus inserted the first key into the lock and turned it. It opened with a loud click.


"Hee-ree! Hee-ree!" Dorus whispered sharply, beckoning her with a wave of his arm. 

As she stepped from beyond the bounds of her prison, he pointed in the direction they were to go. It was the fastest way out, one not guarded by too many goblins, but guarded nonetheless. Dorus took advantage of the first goblin they met and stole his weapons, using blade and mace to defend both himself and the prisoner.


Soon, they were near the exit, but the alert had long since gone out and a swarm of goblins were behind them. He saw the exit up ahead. It was shut tight, but he knew how to open it. Right nest to is was a wheel and a crank, that made it so even one measly goblin alone could open the giant slab door. With a quick gesture of his arm, he signaled the girl to stand beside the door, than began to crank the wheel as best he could. It was barely open a crack, but thanks to the lack of food she had received, the Elf was able to squeeze through it.

Dorus locked the wheel and began to run after her, but just as he attempted to do so, a blunt weapon powerfully thrown struck him on back of his head and caused him to fall!

He recalls being barely cognoscente of anything except blurry shapes and his own heartbeat, yet he glanced up. The image of the Elf girl standing on the other side of the door became clear for a brief moment: She was staring back at him, a look of deep concern upon her fair face. Already the light had returned to her eyes, the hope of escape had rekindled it...  How nice it was that someone as beautiful and bright as she was cared about him, a nobody. Dorus knew what would happen next. He'd seen it in escaping prisoners before: She would come back for him. They would both be caught and killed... He couldn't allow that. Not after how far they had come.

Be it fate or fortune or whatever, an Elf had befriended a Goblin in the most hopeless of places. If only one of them made it out alive, at least someone would remember that something so amazing had ever happened.. And that someone would be the Elf upon his life! She wouldn't die here... She was never meant to die here.. That's why this impossible friendship happened.

Yes, she would escape and live on, doing whatever Elves do forever.....

He would die today to make sure of it... He had a friend and she cared for him.. That was more than he had ever hoped for, and it was enough.

With one last smile at his impossible friend, he swung his dagger and severed the ropes just as his friend called out for him and tried to come back! The doors slammed together, sealing him in and her out. She would be safe now. She would live. He'd never really lived until she came. Knowing the other goblins would not be able to get the door open before she was far, far away filled Dorus with satisfaction, and he gave in to blackness....

********
The next thing Dorus was aware of was that he was tied up and standing before the Goblin King. He doesn't remember much of what was said, but he was sentenced to be thrown to the wargs--  Yet only seconds before he was pushed off the edge, an orc intervened... At least, Dorus thought it was an orc; for it was tall, and green, and wearing orc armor. Yet as it fought in his defense and grabbed him up, he found it was actually a human woman! What was she doing down here? And dressed like that?!

A warg was with her and aided her in an even more daring escaped than his had been with the Elf girl. Once in the safety of the icy peaks, she introduced herself as Eraniell, and her warg as Dagger. 

"I saw what you did for that prisoner, Imp. No other goblin alive would have done it, so I think we have a place for a misfit like you in our kinship.."


The rest is history, my friends.

This Eraniell is a friend and travelling companion of our dear Wavern, but being half-orc, she revels in spending time where you wouldn't find a decent soul. She brought Dorus to our kinship house and kept him a secret there for many weeks, slowly introducing him to those she felt were most ready to meet him. When at last our daring leader ;Skalithor MountainZephyr, discovered him, he was put to work as the Kinship Book-Keeper. 

((That's not to say we didn't have our concerns and disagreements in the group.. But it's settled now and of little importance.))

Dorus now has a room of his own, colorful paints, lots to eat, and as many friends as he had ever dreamed of! He says he is happy here, and honestly, I do not know what we would do without him.

Eraniell took her sweet time getting him home of course, using the spare hours to teach him Westron Speech, so he has done his share of travelling. In fact, if your ever traveling through the deeper parts of the world, you may still find a drawing or two made by Dorus all that long ago.


So there you have it. The Story Of Dorus as told by Dorus, recorded by Boppin Baggyns.

-Boppin
(Account taken from Dorus himself)

Thursday, December 18, 2014

Homesteads and Hospitality


If you've come a-visiting to our home on 2 Chalk Road, Cotstream Shire, there's no doubt the one thing you've noticed; From the nooks on the bookshelves to the proud frames on each wall, and yes, even cluttering over tabletops - our home is full of maps! Indeed! No finer collection this side of the Brandywine either, or so I hear.

Our love of maps is founded in the grain of our beings, for so many of us are of that noble profession - Adventurer! Traveler! Explorer!  We love discovering new lands and placing our foot along the untrodden paths of Middle Earth, uncovering the most ancient of tales and learning the histories of the realm (some more personal than others.) But none so passionate as our beloved kinship leader, Skalithor Mountainzephyr. Most of our maps have been drawn by his hand, for he has journeyed far and wide in exploration. It is said he has traveled the land from the Blue Mountains to the old and evil ruins in Southern Mirkwood, and crossed the vast distance from the peaks of the Misty Mountains to the foothills of the Great White Mountains in Gondor! He has walked in every land and charted many of the deep caverns of Middle Earth, such as the dreadful pit of Goblin Town and the unspeakable depths of Khazad-dûm. Imagine that!

I, myself, am the daughter of a Great Adventurer and Story Teller, and it has been my great pleasure in recent years to visit many of the old haunts from my father's amazing stories. But, of course, that is a written work of its own that I daren't spoil, because it's not yet done!  


So, you would like to know a thing or two about these maps of ours? Well, I suppose the best place to start would be right here, on our homestead.
The Mallorn Children of the Fourth Age are a pleasant group of people, if I should say so, and very fortunate to own a figurative palace in the hillsides of the Shire.  From our kinship home to our individual estates, this little corner - here, I've marked it for you with this blue chalk - is where all these adventurers come home to rest after a long journey across the lands of Middle Earth.  (And yes, I see you're wondering about the red dabs, well those are the only neighbors we have for miles, and as I'm awfully fond of visiting, I have marked down their names and addresses to send them wrapped gifts plus the occasional home-baked pie.)

At any rate, anyone is welcome to visit whenever occasion permits! We might not always be home, of course, but the doors to the grand Kindred Hole are ever open to travelers in need of a place to rest for the night. And, I might mention, there will always be a certain somebody there to make sure you are well looked after. But remember, he is usually quite shy you know, so don't be offended if he doesn't introduce himself right away.

 Should you like a tour of the place? I'll gladly show you around. Please, come into the foyer.

All of our guests are required to have their names written in that book in the corner, just for the house records which are kept and maintained by the Book-Keeper. Usually you will find him at his desk here, but of course it is his lunch hour just now. He probably went in after lighting the fireplace... it does seem to be a bit chilly tonight. Here, please make yourself comfortable and warm up while I write our names in. It shouldn't take a moment.

Now then, you look hungry. Come in and have a bite. 

The tables are always set with a feast fit for a king! Mmmmm... Smell that freshly baked bread and cheese, how delightful!
My cousin Lilliway is a masterful cook, she is always bringing meals over to feed the company. Of course, Boppin also makes regular visits, as she lives just down the hill, and she  always brings the Book-Keeper his daily meals.

However, if it is a feast of the mind you should prefer instead, come step into our library.

It is said by our Kinship Leader that there is only one thing worth more than the charts and maps of the realm, and that is knowledge safely kept and preserved. Wisdom is a priceless treasure.  So it is that not only our library, but also our home is filled with many of the great tales of ages past. A marvelous collection! This room is dedicated to gathering volumes of history and the tales so dear to us all. Though, should you seek more modern works, you may certainly find them here too!

Among them all though, I believe it is this shelf here that holds many of the kindred's favorites!
Countless are the story-lovers who have sat down in this corner to pore over these exact same books! And several who have taken up residence here have also begun to add to our collection with their own works - personal histories, and stories picked up while in their travels. But I mustn't forget that we also have quite a few creative minds among us as well! I, myself, have taken up writing a fantasy novel, and there are plenty written by our members to keep anyone entertained!  

Haha! I'm rambling now I'm sure, but anyway you wanted to see the maps.


In the main room you'll find the "Charting Corner" where navigational tomes are kept and many maps to chart courses of exploration and intrigue.
You might have noticed the ceiling in the Grand Hole is square, and the beams are of a sturdy fashion, well that is because it was designed by a dwarf (or so I am told) but as you can see here, the windows are on this side of the house in good hobbit fashion. I think it provides the charting corner splendid lighting in the daytime myself, which is quite agreeable as many people spend hours with the maps that lay before you.

Come over this way, I want to show you one of my favorite places in the Grand Hole. You look about ready to sit down anyway.

 I've found that there's nothing quite like a homely cozy-corner such as this after a long day's journey. Here is a comfy chair to rest in, and all the best to eat and drink. If you should like to read while you sit, there are good books here too!
I think of all the corners in the Grand Hole, this is one I like the best. I have so many fond memories of the good company here, all seated on the floor about the fire, sharing amazing stories of our adventures! This is where ballads have been composed, songs sung, and dances danced - What wonderful times!

Hm? Oh, you're wondering what is down the hall. Of course.


"The Great Divide." A pathway hither and thither if you will. Both ways lead down, though one down further than the other. You will be carefully watched should you venture down this way, but now that you mention it, I simply must show you what lies down the left hall!


  Come down this way, it's deep, but not too much so. It will be worth it, I assure you!

I call it the "Great Golden Hall" because it is so long. But look there, can you already see it? I personally think it very beautiful.
The kinship leader had that, (at the end down there, don't you see it?) commissioned from pure gold to depict the Dwarf city of Gondamon. I have heard him say that of all the places he's been, Gondamon is the one place he loves the most. I'm not sure exactly why, but the work is lovely, don't you think?

Here you are, the treasure room!


 Being adventurers, you must imagine how much we come by, but many of the people I have met here are well known across the land.
Here is where all our treasures are stowed for safe keeping.
That map there I hear depicts the lands where our kinship earned their first fortune! Then over there is a picture of heraldry - a rich heritage representing  so many of us who have come to call the Grand Hole our home!

But, you shouldn't ask about the chicken and the egg just yet... I wouldn't know how to explain it. Suffice it to say that my cousin Lilliway had something to do with that.

 Anyway, have you enjoyed your tour? You really should visit again sometime, I'm sure the others would be glad to meet you! And you really are welcome to stay as long as you'd like, just - Hm? What's that?  You mean down the other hall?

 Oh, yes. Well, the only ones who go down that hall are those that have serious business to discuss.

Some have called it the basement, others call it the "Dungeon".... But I shan't be taking you down there tonight. Oh dear though - is that light?  It must be. I've talked the night away about the Grand Hole when I promised to tell you about our maps. My oh my, you must forgive me, I get to rambling like this sometimes and forget when to stop.
I'm sure you have other places to be, a fellow adventurer such as yourself can never stay too long, but I hope you go feeling well rested after your stay. You're welcome back anytime!



Goodbye now! Come again soon!
~Maeflower Tooke