Tuesday, January 10, 2017

Contents Of My Head: "My Story"

"Take care of her... She shall not soon find love beyond yours."

Those were the words my mother spoke the night she left me with the caravan; a caravan of half-bloods and outcasts. She gave no other explanation. She merely returned to the blackness of night from which she had come so suddenly, vanishing without a trace as though she had never existed at all.

I was given to a loving couple who changed my name to Dekota. My birth mother became a faceless figure I resented. Ma and Pa, however, always expressed gratitude for my mysterious mother. Ma was so weak that she was unable to have any children of her own.

The woman I called 'Ma' had come to the caravan as an outcast. Since the days of her youth she was plagued by an illness that the healers could not cure. She worked as a seamstress until she became so sickly and frail that she couldn't walk to work anymore. Her muscles slowly degenerated, and soon she lost the use of her legs altogether. She was considered nothing more than a crippled beggar in the eyes of so-called "decent" society. But Ma never begged. She lived under the fallen stone in Beggar's Alley for years, then brigands and mean Southerners started becoming more frequent and her friends feared she might come to harm. They had heard about the caravan sometime before and took Ma to it when it was passing. All my life, I considered Ma the most beautiful woman in the world. Though her face was haggard, it was a face I loved. She had long white hair draped about her shoulder and noticeably fragile bones under a thin layer of skin. She was mostly bed-bound because she didn't have enough strength to stand, but sometimes Pa would carry her outside to a chair in the middle of camp, where she could sit and read to the younger children. I remember her hands were always shaky; more especially as she tried to teach my to write and sew. She had such a sweet laugh. It was a little scratchy but filled with such sweetness that you didn't care.

The man I called 'Pa' was half-orc. He had deserted his rank under the White Hand before the end of the war and worked a farm near Esteldin. He was eventually discovered and driven out. Prejudice men burned his farm and hunted him even though he had fled without a fight. Pa traveled by moonlight in search of a place he could live and eventually found refuge in the caravan. Others, more willing to fight, stood to defend him when the men came. I remember Pa being a strong man and a hard worker. He was often helping other campers by repairing their caravans, reining in the auroch when they became unruly, or carrying the heaviest animal when the hunting party returned with food. He was never angry or violent, always very kind and patient.

As a youth, it seemed I didn't appreciate the wisdom and guidance I received from them. At first I was too young to pay them any real heed, then word of my being a "Wraith Child" began to make our caravan (which already struggled for peace and acceptance) even more unwelcome than ever before. I was twelve years old, my powers started to manifest, and I became angry. I didn't appreciate the home I had or the care I was given anymore. I didn't want to live where I was judged, nor with people who were hated. I was angry that my birth mother had left me. I was angry about the way everyone looked at me. I was angry because of the names they called me and the thing they said I was. The world was my enemy and so was everyone in it. I got in fights, I held grudges, I yelled at people and destroyed things, and I wasn't sorry for any of it. At times, perhaps, Ma and Pa were too timid to handle my outbursts of anger. Nevertheless, they gave me all the love I could ever want and all the comfort they could afford.

Enter the third biggest influence in my life's story:
My birth mother hadn't spoken her cryptic message to the wind that night, nor to a crowd. The woods they were in were menaced by wild wargs, thus a few men kept night-watch. One was an Elf named Fahlion; the only of the fair folk who traveled with the caravan.

It was into his arms that she gave me before disappearing, and it was he who chose to place me with the couple who would love me most. When I began to lash out against everything and everyone, Fahlion took charge of me. Sometimes he would take me away from camp and talk with me as we wandered under the boughs of trees. He didn't make excuses or try to convince me that I was wrong, but he would tell me stories or recite poems that made reevaluate my outlook on life. I was mad at him sometimes. I often yelled at him, but he never yelled back. When it was just the two of us his patience seemed endless, no matter what I did. There were times, however, when I would lash out at people in the caravan; in front of everyone. Then, depending on the severity of my tantrum, he would reprimand me. I tried to fight him, once or twice even physically and he would have to restrain me until I settled down-- I can only imagine how scary those moments were for my sweet Ma and Pa, and for everyone else in camp... Perhaps even for Fahlion too.

Now that I am older, I consider what it must have been like to hold a screaming child; whose scream was so inhuman it caused hearts to freeze-- A child who could summon fire and fought viciously with it, fully intending to burn something... I thought him cruel at the time, but he once threw me headlong into a nearby pond. It was not deep enough to be of any danger me, only enough to quench the flames I had enveloped myself in.

My bravado was instantly shattered and I went sobbing to Ma. She lovingly consoled me until evening when my tears of self pity were spent and guilt had begun to set in. Then Pa came and told me why Fahlion had done it: I was so consumed by rage that I'd actually burned him and hadn't noticed. He was worried that if he just endured the pain, I would continue until I hurt someone else or even myself. Pa strongly encouraged me to apologize to Fahlion and went with me to do so. We found him with the healer, and though he forgave me, I can still remember the horror and shame I felt when I saw his wounds.

That was the last time I tried to hurt someone.

After that, I became afraid of myself. I swore never to use my fire again. Yet Fahlion found ways of urging me to use it when the caravan needed light or warmth. I suddenly had a purpose that was good, and much of my anger at the world went away. I began to realize that I wasn't the monster everyone thought I was, or I didn't have to be at least. My temper was still hard to control at times, but Pa, Ma, and Fahlion each helped me find ways of letting off steam: Throwing a fireball into the air, putting my thoughts on paper and burning it after the feelings were past, or jumping into yet another body of water if the anger was too severe-- They never told me what to do, but somehow the things they would say gave me the idea.

They helped me understand that while rumors and scorn from outsiders fueled my childhood bitterness, it also helped me to accept who I was and stop caring about what others thought. If it hadn't been for Ma, Pa, and Fahlion, I might not have been prepared me to meet Raechal, Unora, and Gladwine later on after leaving the caravan. They most certainly wouldn't have become my friends, I know that for sure!

Now as a young adult on good terms with the world and at peace with myself, I can look back on my life and see where things were fell into place.

I don't know what my life would be like if my birth mother chose to keep me; maybe it would've been better, maybe it would've been worse. Maybe I'll learn more about my birth mother someday. Maybe I'll figure out if she had abilities like mine. Maybe I'll discover of what race I am. Maybe I'll learn about my birth father too... I don't know, and it doesn't matter. Whatever the future holds, I wouldn't trade these experiences or these people for all the answers in the world.



   Perhaps you are familiar with the feeling ...

You have lost something, and you do not remember what it is, or where it was lost, or how. You know that it is something of yours that has been misplaced... your shelf seems emptier somehow, and though you cannot even begin to describe it, you know that you greatly desire to have it back ...
  Sorrow without hope is despair. Although my heart is heavy, as though it has been anchored to the lowest depths of the ocean, I feel hopeful still, that this weight will pass, and that there will again be cause to have joy. There is nothing they can do to take that from me. Even should death watch me from around the corner, I will smile to him.

Friday, January 6, 2017

Fall of Ungoliant's Spawn

Nilithion Has Been Defeated!

The dreaded spider from Moria has at last fallen by the hand of courageous heroes: Captain Evonfall, Tyrral, Tarvhos, Mosaine, Caladheil, and Warey the River-Maid.

From Evendim to the Misty Mountains, the fellowship pursued this dreaded creature on a long and exhausting hunt, which at last concluded within the depth of Helegrod. The length of time spent in the bitter cold with limited rations left the fellowship half frozen and weak, yet they resolved not to let the monster escape this time. When the battle commenced, it took a vicious toll on all concerned. By the hand of the Elf scout Caladheil, the beast took a blow which felled her, but it was a hard earned victory. All members of the group had be injured, many with fatal poison, and lost consciousness in the dark of the cave along side the body of their enemy.

The identities of those who came to their rescue remain unknown, yet each member of the fellowship was delivered alive to Rivendell with poison removed and wounds dressed. As of now, these heroes continue their path to healing and rejuvenation in The Last Homely House.

The land has been cleansed of the spider's maddening influence and news has spread abroad of her death. Peace has returned to nature is seems, yet tales say there is still evil brewing within Moria-- What evil sent the Rune Hunter forth from that place remains unknown. What action will now be taken against it is the decision of kinship leader Skalithor Mountainzephyr.


Monday, January 2, 2017

New Year's Kinship Challenge!

Thank you for your participation
in last years Kinship challenges! 

This year we will be continuing our theme of "Unity" as we move into one of the most challenging stages of our collaboration effort. Our last two challenges involved "Photography" and "Interpretation", wherein our members voted for the screenshot that best represented our theme and were then challenged to take one object in the scenery and creatively describe it as a character
Very good job to all those who chose to participate! These submitted entries will serve as the outline for the next step:


The instructions for this month's challenge are as follows; 
Participants will be given one of the descriptions from the previous challenge to illustrate in any visual medium of their choice. 
An illustration is a visual compliment to a story. The objective of an illustration is to enhance the writing without distracting from it, and to do so an illustrator must be attentive to the author's description. Nothing is more frustrating or unappealing than an illustration that improperly represents the original text of a work. So in this challenge you will be putting your talents to the test through comprehension of an author's original idea and fitting it into visual format in a way that illuminates the concept precisely and artistically, incorporates the challenge's theme, and merits the work of the author as well as the illustrator. 

Best of luck to our incredible artists!